STRESS!

omg i hate this so much.... my only day off i couldn't get shit done. how much i hate this. i wish i can drop the class so i can be less stressful. my whole break is only for one class n one class only. i can't even look over my midterm because of this class. grr how much i hate it. instead of learning the stuff i need i am learning how to fail n give up. one thing is not done the next is coming. then everything is stack on top of each other. how am i gonna manage to finish everything? with family issue, work, n this class. it is my fault to have all these problem. spring break... suppose to go somewhere but no... now im trapped at home n doing hw. how fun! i wish i never taken this class. someone else maybe should of taken strang again. at least he can help me. UGH!! im stressed out!!!

readings

Some reading i've been doing for fun would be.... i havent been reading lately lol but some reading i did was twilight... lol its a really good book n i'll continue to read the other ones when i have the time too and plus the movie is coming out. i do a lot of reading like fan fictions. those are really entertaining when theres nothing to do.
A recent reading that i did for another class was pretty interesting to read. The book is call "Eat A Bowl of Tea" by Louis Chu its a really funny book, its hard to understand since its basically kind of like a translation of chinese to english. the dialog in the book its really weird but interesting and funny. Even the title is a bit odd but overall the book is really entertaining.

wikipedia

hm... wikipedia a source for academic writing. hm... i have no idea which side to be on. for one thing, i know myself that i use wikipedia for my academic writing sometime especailly when i don't understand what a certain topic is. Plus, it is much easier to understand than other website. I guess, wikipedia should be a starting point, just to know the basic knowledge of a certain topic. Still Wiki is not a site that i truly trust, i usually check wiki first and then go to other sites to get more in dept of what wiki is trying to say.
But then again, there are some cons to wiki being an academic source. though, it does have references after a post have been posted up, but someone can easily change the post. It maybe legit in some senses but might as well just to go those sites to check the topic out itself.
to be continue.....

blog roll

so on that side of my page ---------------->
there is a list of blogs that i read almost everyday.
The first two on my list are about the k-pop industry like news about the artist that is translated into English. The second one is a about jewelry, this girl made really pretty necklaces, earrings, bracelets, and etc. I bought several items from her and i like reading about whats on sale, and what she made and what she did recently. THe next one is about asian fashion, whats in and how people dress in other places. The last one is about my favorite band, big bang. News about them and people just talk about how much they like their new album and etc. Ok those are the blogs that i read daily.

Performance vs Authentic Self

hm.... I do agree on some parts of her meaning of performance and authentic self. However, some of her words might be a little harsh. Just like when she said how performance self are fake. That is not necessary true. It’s just that performance self are more into themselves more than authentic self, whereas authentic self seems more natural. Through, her definition to me it seems like when teens are entering high school where people try to find a place for them to fit into. They either want to be in the performance (popular) side or the authentic (more of non popular) side. However, as we grow up we will find out which side we belong to or maybe be in between both, which I think most people are, not much of a performance self or authentic self. Well, I can’t speak for everyone, but at least for me. I am in between performance and authentic. I am not more side with either one.
To me I am in between performance self and authentic self, I don’t think I am more of either one. I am who I am; I don’t change my personality when I am with people who are close to me or strangers. I still act the way I am. After typing I am not more of either one, I stare at the book, and thought maybe I am more of one than the other. Haha Maybe I do lean more toward authentic self, I like to do a lot of things my way, and I don’t like to follow people much. Just like in high school, every teenager has tried to fit into a group to make them well known or be popular or hangs with the popular crowd; however, I became friends with both side of the crowd. The nerdy one and the popular ones, I had my own group of friends that are unique in their special ways. Among my friends, all of us have different personality and neither of us likes to follow what others do. We do things that we believe that is right and those we like to do.
After reading the article with the teacher getting fired because of talking about one of her student’s religion, I kind of think the teacher am kind of ridiculous in a way. Yes, it is her personal social network and it is her freedom of speech but knowing that she is friends with the student or the student parent shouldn’t she re think about what she writes on her status. Maybe sometimes people got to be performance self at times to keep away the truth but other times it is not necessary. In a way both the parent or the student and the teacher is very wrong in both ways. The parent shouldn’t even be checking up on the teacher’s status in the first place. Though when a status is posted everyone can see but can’t the parent just pretend not to see it or why friends with their children’s teacher are anyways. Yea, the teacher could have just talk it over with her friends and still keep her job but her habits won’t change.

"Something Borrowed"

                     After reading the article the first thing that came to my mind was wow, so glad that wasn’t me. Haha. I think it is wrong for Byrony Lavery to use someone’s life and make it into a play without that person’s permission. What is the difference between stealing someone’s identity? To me, it seems like the same thing. Though, Lavery did use it to create something new, fresh, and interesting for people to see but still it was wrong of her to just copy without Dorothy Lewis’s permission. If I was Lewis and my life has been copied and used as a play and heard about the play from a third party since I didn’t know about it, I would be really mad and upset. I think most people would be. Knowing that my life is being shown to many people and yet I know nothing about it. Plagiarism can ruin someone’s life, though it didn’t really ruin Lewis’s life but it still have an effect on her. Like in the article it did say that Lewis is scared that people may think some part of the play is what she really do in real life, the play can ruin her reputation. Then again, Lavery was creating something new, she twist some parts of Lewis’s life to make it more interesting and more exciting which she just borrowed or got her inspiration from Lewis’s life. Though, there are many parts in the play that was similar to what Lewis did in real life and her study but most of them were opposite of what happen in real life or Lavery twist it. Yes, she did borrow Lewis’s life without her permission but she did create something new and it wasn’t a boring play. It was a play that everyone actually loved. So in a way I believe that Lavery somewhat did Lewis wrong but Lewis can’t be truly mad at Lavery.

Another part I think Lavery did wrong is that she credit the victim, that Lewis used as her study and was talked about in her books, yet Lewis’s name was not mention. We talked about this in class, I feel bad for Lewis, she put so much effort into interviewing and studying these victims, and out of nowhere came this play and those victims are credit and yet she wasn’t. Though, she interview them for her study since Lavery already credit the victims might as well credit the person who interview them.There are so many types of plagiarism, no wonder it is so complicated to keep track about it.

I thought the part about how artist or musicians plagiarism too because of parts of the song sound the same. There are many songs that have similar parts and sound alike that doesn’t mean they purposely copied another’s person’s music. Since I am really into Korean music and there are so much rumors of so and so copy this so and so, so that person is going to be sue. The article had me thinking that it is not necessary to actually go to court and waste people’s time and money because a couple of keys are alike. I just think it is really stupid to sue someone because of couple notes are alike. They can find other ways of resolving it.

ESSAY???

What is an essay? hm... what is an essay? seriously what is it? before I might answer it as a 5 paragraph paper that is assign by a teacher to see what we think of a book or article. hm... maybe half of that is true. Essay is never something I really want to do, unless the topic is something i am interested on. Just like in my senior year for high school in my ap english class, my teacher assign many books for us to read. I remember there is this one thick book that everyone hated because the words were small and the chapters were long. I thought i was going to be like everyone else who hated the book instead i like the book so much that i read ahead many times. The book is call "Great Expectations" by Charles Dickens. I forgot what was the prompt for that essay that we have to write about. But that was one of the essay that i have so much ideas for. I was really into the book, so when it came to the essay, it was fun. I had a good grade on that essay but i struggle a lot just to gather all my ideas together.I also know why i hate essay because i always get stuck on some part and don't know how to transition it. I remember back in my english class again, there was this one time where my english teacher was sick so she couldn't make it to class. She left the substitute teacher an in class essay for us to write. Before the substitute came in, one of my classmate took all the paper that was related to the in class essay and hide it. So during that class we didn't write an essay yet we just sat around and talked. When  my teacher came back she was mad that we didn't write the essay and blame the substitute for not giving it to us. That was a funny day. But yea here is what essay means:

So on Wikipedia it says that an essay is "....usually a short piece of writing which is quite often written from an author's personal point of view. Essays can consist of a number of elements, including: literary criticism, political manifestos, learned arguments, observations of daily life, recollections, and reflections of the author. The definition of an essay is vague, overlapping with those of an article and a short story."
There are many different forms and different meanings for an essay, it can be short and it can be long. But i realize that when I first knew about "essay" it was just a 5 paragraph essay, however, as we grew up it seem to add more meaning into the form of "essay."

The verb definition of essay is "an attempt and to try," from dictionary.com. When I read the definition of essay the verb one, I was surprise! I never or even thought about the verb meaning of essay. It goes right along with the noun meaning of essay though. No wonder teachers been telling us to at least just try to do your essay or do our best. Just trying our best is writing an essay already. haha.